September's Song

For me, September is bittersweet. The days are warm, the nights much cooler. The colors of the landscape are subtly turning from summer's green to autumn's gold and crimson hues-what's not to love?
The vegetable garden is mostly done for the season, a few green tomatoes hang valiantly onto the vines, hoping to ripen before frost arrives, carrots and beets wait to be pulled and then suddenly, it's over. I have to wait eight long months before I can do it all over again.
My little hummingbird is frantically sipping from what's left of the fall perennials. He will have a long flight to migrate to warmer climates, so he has to stock up. I see him several times a day now and always feel sad that he won't be around until next summer.
For now, I will content myself with getting the beds ready for winter, gathering seeds for next year, harvesting late vegetables and planning next year's plantings. One of the joys of being a gardener is that it is a never-ending work in progress. There will always be a new beginning, a new chance to start from scratch and make things better. For now, I must concentrate on enjoying the wonderful blessings of autumn, the here and now, and be thankful for the rewards of being a gardener.

Autumn Brings Changes

As a new Autumn season officially begins, I have decided to expand this blog to include all aspects of my world, the inner workings as well as the outside. Having lived with a panic disorder for over 45 years, I feel that I can give my own unique perspective and perhaps help others who suffer similarly, to understand what is going on and ways to cope or just let them know they aren't alone.
Life revolves in cycles, the good mingling with the bad and not so pleasant, the same as with the cycles of the seasons. With Fall underway, I hope to bring greater understanding and meaning to my own experience and possibly to yours. Feel free to e-mail me with questions or comments.

Pear Harvest

My pear trees are literally dripping with fruit, the branches sagging with luscious treasure. It's time once again, to harvest the bounty. Pears are picked while they are still green and will ripen on racks in the cool confines of my basement throughout the autumn months.

I can tell the fruit is ready to be picked when the pear breaks away from the branch with ease, in fact, so easy, I have to be careful about dropping them. I easily fill my basket several times and have to get the ladder to reach the top- most branches.

I firmly believe in growing as much of my own food as possible, cooking and eating seasonally. I preserve what we can't eat right away and that ensures the flavors of summer can be enjoyed year round. Pears are a versatile fruit, they make wonderful muffins and breads, pear butter, salads and poached for dessert. No grocery store pear can compare with the flavor of home grown. In fact, there is nothing more sensual than biting into any fruit, still warm from the sun, fragrant with the ripeness of summer, and juice running down your chin. Heaven has to be a garden!

The Labor Day weekend signals the "unofficial" end of summer here in Wisconsin, land of the short growing season and extreme weather changes, so, it's not a holiday that I particularly look forward to. Summer is my favorite time of year and I would be more than happy to enjoy warm sunshine and year-round gardening. I already notice the shorter days. After supper dishes are done, there isn't much daylight left to enjoy time in the garden. For every other holiday throughout the year, I am ecstatic and love to decorate my house and front yard for the season, prepare special foods and host festivities, gathering with family and friends to celebrate. Labor Day is very low key, although there are a few traditions that I try to keep each year, the Walworth County fair, our annual downtown Labor Day parade and gathering with family to grill outdoors and eat our favorite summer foods.

Soon, there won't be the opportunities to enjoy these outdoor pursuits, the balmy breezes of summer will soon turn to the crisp winds of autumn. I intend to savor every last bit of warm, summer weather...it has to sustain me through the long, cold months ahead.

The opportunity arose today, to engage in another one of my favorite pursuits. I call it meandering. We hop into our truck and explore the surrounding countryside, taking scenic back roads and discovering new vistas of the southern Wisconsin landscape. Often we have no destination, the fun is being surprised by the journey itself and the discoveries we make.
Our part of the state is rich with incredibly beautiful scenery, which I plan on sharing in future posts since I left my camera at home.
Today, we headed west, through rolling hills and cornfields as far as the eye can see, interrupted only by stands of hardwood trees and the occasional lazy stream. Everything is lush, ripe and green, waiting for the harvest soon to come. Cows of every variety and color fill the pastures and barnyards, placidly grazing or relaxing in the shade.... we are America's Dairyland after all and we love our cows.
Wisconsin is also home to many Amish families. We pass their quaint farms and I am awed at the lack of any modern amenities. Today, one family's horse was hitched to their buggy, waiting to travel on a highway shared with motorized vehicles. Another farm had the hand wringer washing machine sitting on the front porch, a cooler and more scenic spot to launder their clothing and just a few steps from the clothesline where they hang them to dry in the summer air. A different world altogether than what we are familiar with.
So, our meandering adventure was a success. I feel very peaceful and grateful that I am able to live in such beautiful, natural surroundings, close to the land and its seasonal rhythms.

My home is the center of my world. I've lived in the same house for the entire twenty-eight years of my marriage, creating every aspect inside and out, crafting the home of my dreams. We've all seen the magazines featuring dream homes that have every imaginable luxury and comfort that money can buy.......and it takes a sizeable amount of money to make those wishes materialize. How many people dream and wish and postpone their happiness until they attain that mythical house that will allow them to live the wonderful life they imagine?

As a child, I would amuse myself by planning what sort of house I would live in, how I would decorate it and what I would do there. Being an avid reader with an overactive imagination, my dream abode was an underground burrow in the woods and all the woodland creatures would be my neighbors. I would host tea parties, plant hollyhocks beside my kitchen door and live happily ever after.

In reality, my husband and I built a new house in a new subdivision to start our new life together. I was completely in my element, choosing the floorplan, colors, cabinets, and all the myriad details and choices that go into constructing a home. We made a conscious decision to live in a small, affordable house, to make it our own using creativity and ingenuity. It became our "dream" house because we choose to see it that way. I don't want to postpone my life until all my hopes and wishes come true. After all, it's not the material aspects of a house that makes it your dream. It's the life well lived within the walls of a house that truly makes it a home. By the way, I do love to host parties. I've planted hollyhocks (and hundreds of other perennials, trees, shrubs, herbs, fruits and vegetables) outside my kitchen door, and the little woodland creatures are my dearest and closest neighbors.

On this beautiful August morning, I notice a subtle change in the quality of light shining across the garden. It has taken on a softer golden hue, the color of late summer in Wisconsin. I can see the flower borders slowing down, the riotous colors and rapid changes of the early growing season is now replaced by the steady yellow- orange of black-eyed susans, creamy hydrangeas and maroon heleniums. There is a lazy languor among the butterflies and nectar drunk bees....and me. No more rushing to get everything done in our too short growing season. It's all been done and now we can finally slow down and just enjoy the pleasures of the late summer garden. I want to hang on to every golden moment and impress them into memories that will sustain me through the long winter months ahead. For all it's fleeting beauty, I am a willing slave to the garden and all of it's charms, whatever the season.